On Confidence and Feeling Settled

* This post is full of gratuitous self praise. You need not read it if you don’t like that kind of thing.

For those of you who don’t know, I am working on writing eBooks for Kindle. 

They are Successful to Burnt Out: Experiences of Females on the Autism Spectrum, Inaccessable: Poetry about things inaccessable to me, and My Life As I See It: A Young Adult.

Two of them were mostly written in years past and just needed revising.  One of them I wrote from scratch recently. 
The draft which requires a major overhaul is my autobiography. Splitting it into a couple of eBooks is in progress.

Being Confident 

I’ve noticed that I was a lot more positive about myself in the years that I wrote the autobiography. 

I know that I was putting my best foot forward so to speak. That was intentional. However I also remember a difference between the confidence I had for my future, and the cynicism I have had for several years.

Some experiences since July have been great for bringing to my self identity levels of confidence. Rereading my autobiography is another experience.

I enjoy some confidence in my future now. I used to hope that I wouldn’t fall into another major depressive state. Nowdays my anxiety has mellowed out into wondering, when my mood falls, how many days I will be unproductive, anxious and out of it.

Being Settled

I have been feeling more and more settled since August 2016, when I started seeing mental health professionals again. 

One expression of this is feeling at home in a community of emerging writers. 

Writing for this many months has been gratifying. Mainly because I’ve learned not to burn myself out. Going slow and steady seems to be serving me well. 

For the eBook Successful to burnt Out, I recieved the first couple of contributions from a woman on the Spectrum. The time and care that she took while writing her stories was fantastic.

* Here comes the shameless self praise

I wonder if, in part, she was influenced by the question prompts I sent her. There are questions for each section. I feel settled that I’ve done a task beyond what was expected of me. Something that could come in handy.

Feeling at Home

Thanks for reading if you made it to the end. I will take virtual high fives on Twitter. Not Facebook. 

Heh, only kidding. 

I’ll leave you with songs that have been on my playlists recently. Thanks for listening.

An emerging writer

Drinking in L.A. by Bran Van 3000.

Feeling settled

Home by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros.

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